EXPANSION OF VOCABULARY
MY OBSERVATIONS FROM STANCE OF age of about 3 years old: OF THE word BROTHER
My own two younger brothers - A lot different DOLLIES were delivered from Santa to my Mommie because she went another place to get her gifts from Santa Claus. At this age I had not connected the ideas of PREGNANCY - NEWBORNE the name I gave to the CONCEPT was DOLLY at this age.
... The first brother younger than myself has a birthday of January 5, 1953
...In January of 1953, I was going to celebrate my 3rd birthday on April, 1953
Sunday, December 12, 2010
IN THE BEGINNING: Was HEARD human voices and others heard a PRIMAL scream: The SELF and OTHERS
PRIMAL SCREAM
primal definition:
pri·mal
adj \ˈprī-məl\
Definition of PRIMAL
1
: original, primitive primal innocence — Van Wyck Brooks>
2
: first in importance : primary
PRIMAL + SCREAM
PRIMAL SCREAM
primal definition:
pri·mal
adj \ˈprī-məl\
Definition of PRIMAL
1
: original, primitive primal innocence — Van Wyck Brooks>
2
: first in importance : primary
PRIMAL + SCREAM
PRIMAL SCREAM
Primal therapy is a trauma-based psychotherapy created by Arthur Janov, who argues that neurosis is caused by the repressed pain of childhood trauma. Janov argues that repressed pain can be sequentially brought to conscious awareness and resolved through re-experiencing the incident and fully expressing the resulting pain during therapy. Primal therapy was developed as a means of eliciting the repressed pain; the term "Pain" is capitalized in discussions of primal therapy when referring to any repressed emotional distress and its purported long-lasting psychological effects. Janov criticizes the talking therapies as they deal primarily with the cerebral cortex and higher reasoning areas, and do not access the source of Pain within the more basic parts of the central nervous system.
Primal Therapy is used to re-experience childhood pain--i.e., felt rather than conceptual memories--in an attempt to resolve the pain through complete processing and integration--becoming "real." An intended objective of the therapy is to lessen or eliminate the hold early trauma exerts on adult life.
Primal therapy became very influential during a brief period in the early 1970s, after the publication of Janov's first book, The Primal Scream. It inspired hundreds of spin-off clinics worldwide, and served as an inspiration for many popular cultural icons. John Lennon, actor James Earl Jones and pianist Roger Williams were prominent advocates of Primal Therapy.[1] Primal therapy has since declined in popularity, partly because Janov has not produced the outcomes studies necessary to convince research-oriented psychotherapists of its effectiveness. Janov and others continue to advocate and practice the therapy or various developments of it.
MY OWN BRAIN - THE WORD ONE
MY MEANING OF WORDS WILL NOT BE YOUR MEANING OF SIMPLE WORDS
This picture OF MY OWN BRAIN
is the only way I can describe MY adult MEANING OF THE WORD ONE
This requires a VISUAL definition
I cannot attach words to this and trust me I have tried
this also what the word ONE meant to me BEFORE kindergarten
A VISUAL HAS MEANING TO ME
As a little girl perhaps in Kindergarten I KNEW that I HAD TO SEPARATE THE MEANING of the word ONE that was so easy for me to speak into another MEANING when the teach started talking about numbers. This was my initial point that I can recall from my own memories of a CHOSEN MENTAL ACTIVITY THAT WAS WORK!!!!
This picture OF MY OWN BRAINis the only way I can describe MY adult MEANING OF THE WORD ONE
This requires a VISUAL definition
I cannot attach words to this and trust me I have tried
this also what the word ONE meant to me BEFORE kindergarten
A VISUAL HAS MEANING TO ME
MY ACTIVITY IS TO LITERALLY TOUCH MY HEAD WITH MY right index FINGER TO CHANGE THESE ACTIVITIES AUTOMATICALLY. I learned as a little girl THESE ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS COMPLETELY.
MY REMEMBRANCE is an actual physical movement of my arm to my own head and I use my index finger to actually touch my head. I do this automatically when I see LETTERS and NUMBERS. I was maybe in Kindergarten when I started to do this on a daily basis. I then thought EVERY ONE touched their heads to go from NUMBERS 123's TO abc's because they both used the WORD ONE. This was prior to reading and writing in my own life. I was so, so little. I KNEW the English word ONE meant different things, and you touched your head when one was used in reading and one was used in arithmetic.
When I realized that I was the only one that HAD TO TOUCH MY HEAD to know the difference between the activities of reading and doing arithmetic, I FELT SHAME THAT I HAD TO DO IT so I could get a good grade. It seemed to help and I didn't understand WHY.
MY REMEMBRANCE is an actual physical movement of my arm to my own head and I use my index finger to actually touch my head. I do this automatically when I see LETTERS and NUMBERS. I was maybe in Kindergarten when I started to do this on a daily basis. I then thought EVERY ONE touched their heads to go from NUMBERS 123's TO abc's because they both used the WORD ONE. This was prior to reading and writing in my own life. I was so, so little. I KNEW the English word ONE meant different things, and you touched your head when one was used in reading and one was used in arithmetic.
When I realized that I was the only one that HAD TO TOUCH MY HEAD to know the difference between the activities of reading and doing arithmetic, I FELT SHAME THAT I HAD TO DO IT so I could get a good grade. It seemed to help and I didn't understand WHY.
The English word THAT CAN BE WRITTEN OR SPOKEN:
ONE is a word used both in WRITING and in MATHEMATICS.
ONE is a word used both in WRITING and in MATHEMATICS.
As a little girl perhaps in Kindergarten I KNEW that I HAD TO SEPARATE THE MEANING of the word ONE that was so easy for me to speak into another MEANING when the teach started talking about numbers. This was my initial point that I can recall from my own memories of a CHOSEN MENTAL ACTIVITY THAT WAS WORK!!!!
- SPEAKING
- ABC'S
- 123's
REMEMBRANCE ATTACHED TO BODY: ACTIVITY OF "TO REMEMBER"
DIFFERENCES OF MALE AND FEMALE BRAIN
REMEMBRANCE ATTACHED TO BODY: ACTIVITY OF TO REMEMBER
THIS IS LEARNED AT THE STAGE A MOTHER
KNOWS WHAT HER BABY IS SAYING BY TONE OF VOICE
It was only after the age of 41 in the year of 1941, that I AWOKE TO THIS INNATE ABILITY that my little brothers taught me by my watching their non-spoken behavior between each other prior to their own motor skills to coordinate their mouths to EVEN SPEAK.
THE WORD SURVIVAL WAS THE KEY WORD I NEEDED DISCOVER TO UNLOCK A TYPE OF KEY FOR SELF UNDERSTANDING
POINTING my right index FINGER TO my HEAD
IS MY OWN VERBAL ACTIVITY 'to remember' like telling myself this is VERY IMPORTANT FOR SURVIVAL TO REMEMBER
versus memorization
REMEMBRANCE ATTACHED TO BODY: ACTIVITY OF TO REMEMBER
This ability that my little brothers communicating with ONLY EACH OTHER taught ME.
THIS WAS THE HARDEST TO SORT OUT IN MY OWN MIND,
I THOUGHT EVERYONE DID THIS.
I THOUGHT EVERYONE DID THIS.
THIS IS LEARNED AT THE STAGE A MOTHER
KNOWS WHAT HER BABY IS SAYING BY TONE OF VOICE
It was only after the age of 41 in the year of 1941, that I AWOKE TO THIS INNATE ABILITY that my little brothers taught me by my watching their non-spoken behavior between each other prior to their own motor skills to coordinate their mouths to EVEN SPEAK.
THE WORD SURVIVAL WAS THE KEY WORD I NEEDED DISCOVER TO UNLOCK A TYPE OF KEY FOR SELF UNDERSTANDING
POINTING my right index FINGER TO my HEAD
IS MY OWN VERBAL ACTIVITY 'to remember' like telling myself this is VERY IMPORTANT FOR SURVIVAL TO REMEMBER
versus memorization
SPEAKING:: I think different than you do IS A TRUTH - INNATE TRUTH
INNATE
Small children DO NO KNOW HOW to lie.
Small children DO NO KNOW HOW to lie.
The IDEAL world in connection with the word IDEA: FALSE EXPECTATION
This is what discovered after VERY HARD personal work to be one of the MOST DIFFICULT to separate. The only way personal that I can separate this is by my own personally SPOKEN WORDS: Return yourself back to those time when you were maybe waiting to enter Kindergarten and you OWN idea of HOLDING something.
I HELD FALSE EXPECTATIONS
YOU ARE THE KNOWER
TO ME, I HAVE ALWAYS VIEWED THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE AS A FOREIGN LANGUAGE THAT I HAD TO LEARN AND IT ONLY CONFUSES OTHERS. AT THE AGE OF 60, I UNDERSTAND MY HATRED OF THIS LANGUAGE SYSTEM CARRIED TO THIS CONTINENT SO LONG AGO IN AMERICAN HISTORY. YOU DO NOT BLAME PEOPLE, YOU BLAME THE TOOL THEY USE TO COMMUNICATE.
THERE IS SEVERE NEED FOR A VOCABULARY THAT IS A TOOL TO COMMUNICATE, RATHER THAN A TOOL FOR A SYSTEM OF WRITTEN LAWS.
I had two brothers that had developed their own language system with motion and sound attaching their own sounds prior to their own language development. As their older sister, I learned and could communicate with my younger brothers and remembered.
NO ONE realized that I too could speak what they called TWINERISM requiring only several months of speech therapy. My brothers forgot their language, but their older sister could still speak it, but no one to speak it with. I was 3 and 4 years older than my younger brothers and at a different stage of language development. I falsely assumed as a little girl EVERYONE knew this language it was so easy and then was told it was a bad thing to do and that it had hurt my little brothers. Carrying secrets come in all forms. This secret stayed hidden under so many painfilled memories of adulthood.
My own way of viewing the world around is the way my younger brothers taught me and the vocabulary spoken and written is only a tool that you can chose to practice. I had carried real anger and pain from childhood hearing adults that were significant in my life such as an Elementary school principle and teachers laugh about my younger brothers. Their laughter was also laughing at me, because I should have been included. Adult's ignorance and lack of knowledge can injure little ones and I am a person that has to vocabulary to speak of those wounds. I can use a tool, and the written and spoken LANGUAGE is a tool.
At the age of 23 years old in 1973 having on a 2-year Associate Degree in Fashion, I obtained a job that I have frequently termed a once noble profession that was taken over by Title Insurance. To become a Registered and Bonded Abstracter of Real Property in 1973 it was a requirement to take a 2-day state exam. The first day covered the contents of a Law School Property Conveyancing books related to only real property and not personal property. My husband at the time took such a class in Law School and his test on this subject matter was not 8 hours as was mine.
The second day was the actual abstracting of all the legal documents that would pertain to a specifically describe tract of real estate. Real property is term that relates to just the ground you are standing on where as personal property will be structures for example. Real estate is a term I would see used to determine VALUE.
I have skills of an Abstracter and those skills are rare. In the 70's you had to train under another person to do the actual abstracting of the legal papers. An Abstract of Title was frequently folded similar to map with a rubber band. Your Abstract would kept in a bank vault or other safe place. I would charge for each entry such as deeds, mortgage, assignments, releases, etc., and also per page of court documents such as divorces, estates, foreclosures. A tax entry would be made at the time of I certified title with my signature. Bond was required if I would have missed a document, I then held financial accountability. The Abstract would subsequently be read by an attorney for his rendering of a Title Opinion. My customers were real estate agents, bankers, and private individuals buying and selling real estate.
I took this 2-day Nebraska state exam in 1973 without knowing I was pregnant with my first baby subsequently born in January of 1994. Shortly after his birth, my husband and I moved to our small rural hometown where my husband started his own solo law practice. At this time of our lives his mother was the elected Register of Deeds of the county. When I went to the county courthouse I would always enjoy my children's grandma and watching her show all her many, many pictures of her grandchildren. My son was born in 1973, my oldest daughter in 1974, my middle daughter in 1978 and my youngest daughter in 1979.
Due to the old pain yet to be even seen by my adult eyes. Childhood memories become sometimes so irrelevant when you are busy as an adult. I was so busy. The home my husband and I purchased had an office annexed that I used to open my own Abstracting Company. It worked so good because my business was not heavy. There were two other Abstracting companies in this small town at that time. It worked so good to only be away from my children for several hours in the afternoon to go to the courthouse to research title records in the various offices. I grew up in this town and knew people and finding a babysitter for several hours to come into my home gave me a chance to get out and be able to also pick up groceries, etc.
Abstracting also required my abilities to draw maps of the specifically described real estate description for inclusion in the Abstract of Title. Also my Abstracts required a special entry as to my certifying that all was correct. Today I can see that this was IDEAL job for me to make money.
ORIENTATION IN TIME AND PLACE is part of this unspoken language my brothers taught me. Likewise the map making skills I could manifest were part of this very easy but so hard to explain manner of communicating one to another. COMMUNICATION is an English word that I intend to address in this writing.
In
IT WAS ONLY REMEMBERING WHAT MEANINGS I HAD PUT ON MY 10 FINGERS THAT SAVED MY LIFE FROM ATTEMPTED SUICIDE IN 1991. IF MY BROTHERS HAD NOT TAUGHT THEIR SISTER, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD AT THE AGE OF 41.
THE ONLY WAY I CAN DESCRIBE WHAT WAS ON MY FINGERS WAS AN EXPRESSION FROM ONE OF MY OWN FOUR CHILDREN'S BOOKS WHEN THEY WERE SMALL THAT I READ TO EACH IN THEIR OWN TIME. IT IS FROM DOCTOR SUESSS AND THE CAT IN THE HAT.
THERE IS SEVERE NEED FOR A VOCABULARY THAT IS A TOOL TO COMMUNICATE, RATHER THAN A TOOL FOR A SYSTEM OF WRITTEN LAWS.
I had two brothers that had developed their own language system with motion and sound attaching their own sounds prior to their own language development. As their older sister, I learned and could communicate with my younger brothers and remembered.
NO ONE realized that I too could speak what they called TWINERISM requiring only several months of speech therapy. My brothers forgot their language, but their older sister could still speak it, but no one to speak it with. I was 3 and 4 years older than my younger brothers and at a different stage of language development. I falsely assumed as a little girl EVERYONE knew this language it was so easy and then was told it was a bad thing to do and that it had hurt my little brothers. Carrying secrets come in all forms. This secret stayed hidden under so many painfilled memories of adulthood.
My own way of viewing the world around is the way my younger brothers taught me and the vocabulary spoken and written is only a tool that you can chose to practice. I had carried real anger and pain from childhood hearing adults that were significant in my life such as an Elementary school principle and teachers laugh about my younger brothers. Their laughter was also laughing at me, because I should have been included. Adult's ignorance and lack of knowledge can injure little ones and I am a person that has to vocabulary to speak of those wounds. I can use a tool, and the written and spoken LANGUAGE is a tool.
At the age of 23 years old in 1973 having on a 2-year Associate Degree in Fashion, I obtained a job that I have frequently termed a once noble profession that was taken over by Title Insurance. To become a Registered and Bonded Abstracter of Real Property in 1973 it was a requirement to take a 2-day state exam. The first day covered the contents of a Law School Property Conveyancing books related to only real property and not personal property. My husband at the time took such a class in Law School and his test on this subject matter was not 8 hours as was mine.
The second day was the actual abstracting of all the legal documents that would pertain to a specifically describe tract of real estate. Real property is term that relates to just the ground you are standing on where as personal property will be structures for example. Real estate is a term I would see used to determine VALUE.
I have skills of an Abstracter and those skills are rare. In the 70's you had to train under another person to do the actual abstracting of the legal papers. An Abstract of Title was frequently folded similar to map with a rubber band. Your Abstract would kept in a bank vault or other safe place. I would charge for each entry such as deeds, mortgage, assignments, releases, etc., and also per page of court documents such as divorces, estates, foreclosures. A tax entry would be made at the time of I certified title with my signature. Bond was required if I would have missed a document, I then held financial accountability. The Abstract would subsequently be read by an attorney for his rendering of a Title Opinion. My customers were real estate agents, bankers, and private individuals buying and selling real estate.
I took this 2-day Nebraska state exam in 1973 without knowing I was pregnant with my first baby subsequently born in January of 1994. Shortly after his birth, my husband and I moved to our small rural hometown where my husband started his own solo law practice. At this time of our lives his mother was the elected Register of Deeds of the county. When I went to the county courthouse I would always enjoy my children's grandma and watching her show all her many, many pictures of her grandchildren. My son was born in 1973, my oldest daughter in 1974, my middle daughter in 1978 and my youngest daughter in 1979.
Due to the old pain yet to be even seen by my adult eyes. Childhood memories become sometimes so irrelevant when you are busy as an adult. I was so busy. The home my husband and I purchased had an office annexed that I used to open my own Abstracting Company. It worked so good because my business was not heavy. There were two other Abstracting companies in this small town at that time. It worked so good to only be away from my children for several hours in the afternoon to go to the courthouse to research title records in the various offices. I grew up in this town and knew people and finding a babysitter for several hours to come into my home gave me a chance to get out and be able to also pick up groceries, etc.
Abstracting also required my abilities to draw maps of the specifically described real estate description for inclusion in the Abstract of Title. Also my Abstracts required a special entry as to my certifying that all was correct. Today I can see that this was IDEAL job for me to make money.
ORIENTATION IN TIME AND PLACE is part of this unspoken language my brothers taught me. Likewise the map making skills I could manifest were part of this very easy but so hard to explain manner of communicating one to another. COMMUNICATION is an English word that I intend to address in this writing.
In
IT WAS ONLY REMEMBERING WHAT MEANINGS I HAD PUT ON MY 10 FINGERS THAT SAVED MY LIFE FROM ATTEMPTED SUICIDE IN 1991. IF MY BROTHERS HAD NOT TAUGHT THEIR SISTER, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD AT THE AGE OF 41.
THE ONLY WAY I CAN DESCRIBE WHAT WAS ON MY FINGERS WAS AN EXPRESSION FROM ONE OF MY OWN FOUR CHILDREN'S BOOKS WHEN THEY WERE SMALL THAT I READ TO EACH IN THEIR OWN TIME. IT IS FROM DOCTOR SUESSS AND THE CAT IN THE HAT.
I AM WHAT I AM SAYS THE CAT FROM SIAM
WHEN I SPEAK THAT WITH MY FINGERS IT IS SPEAKING TO MYSELF, A REMEMBRANCE. A REMBRANCE THAT I HAD ATTACHED WHEN MY BABIES WERE SO SMALL. IT CALLS ME BACK TO HOLDING MY LITTLE BABIES. AND I CRY. BABIES ARE SMALL SUCH A SHORT TIME.
YOU DON'T NEED YOUR MEMORY FOR REMEMBRANCE, MEMORY IS A TOOL AS ARE THE SPOKEN AND WRITTEN LANGUAGES.
A DOCTOR IN DENVER IN 2002 SAID I SHOULD WRITE A BOOK TO SHARE. IT IS SO, SO DIFFICULT WHEN OTHERS DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SPEAK MEANING.
YOU DON'T NEED YOUR MEMORY FOR REMEMBRANCE, MEMORY IS A TOOL AS ARE THE SPOKEN AND WRITTEN LANGUAGES.
A DOCTOR IN DENVER IN 2002 SAID I SHOULD WRITE A BOOK TO SHARE. IT IS SO, SO DIFFICULT WHEN OTHERS DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SPEAK MEANING.
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