My Beloved is ONE alone; Everywhere my eyes seem Him only. In search of love, I came to this world, but after seeing the world I wept, for I felt coldness on all sides, and I cried out in despair, "Must I too Become cold?". And with tears, tears, tears, I nurtured that plant with tenderness which I had almost lost within my heart. Putting reason in the churn of love, I churned and churned. Then I took the butter for myself.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Writings addressing the little word HURT


hurt (n.)
c.1200, "a wound, an injury;" also "sorrow, lovesickness," from hurt (v.).
hurting (adj.)
1680s, "causing hurt," from prp. of hurt (v.). Reflexive sense of "suffering, feeling pain" recorded by 1944.
hurt (v.)
c.1200, "to injure, wound" (the body, feelings, reputation, etc.), also "to stumble (into), bump into; charge against, rush, crash into; knock (things) together," from O.Fr. hurter "to ram, strike, collide," perhaps from Frankish *hurt "ram" (cf. M.H.G. hurten "run at, collide," O.N. hrutr "ram"). The English usage is as old as the French, and perhaps there was a native O.E. *hyrtan, but it has not been recorded. Meaning "to be a source of pain" (of a body part) is from 1850. To hurt (one's) feelings attested by 1779. Sense of "knock" died out 17c., but cf. hurtle. Other Germanic languages tend to use their form of English scathe in this sense (cf. Dan. skade, Swed. skada, Ger. schaden, Du. schaden).



Today I look back and realize the BLESSING I received by having my fraternal Great Grandfather born in 1875 as an active part of my everyday life from the age of 3 until my heart was broken when Gramps died when I was 11 years old in 1961. Gramps had raised 9 children and then raised two grandchildren (my uncle and aunt) after his eldest daughter died (my fraternal grandmother). My Dad's mother died on his on his own 11th birthday in 1936 (during the time period of the Great Depression) and my Dad then stayed in Chicago with his father and his younger siblings went to their grandparents home.

My Dad shared his birthday with the anniversary of his mother's death and I am sure that birthdays were celebrated in a manner much different during the time period of the Great Depression than they are celebrated in our American culture today. I was an adult before I understood why my father never wanted a party or gifts on his birthday and he would always say that "it's your mother that should be honored on your birthday due to all the work she did giving birth to you". When my father spoke the word BIRTHDAY - the meaning it carried for him held a very different flavor, hue and texture then when I speak that same word, or when one of my four children uses it in their everyday conversations.

We have been given sense organs that all point OUTWARD into the environment that surrounds us and it takes actual effort to point our lens of focus INWARD to begin a real journey towards self-understanding and self-acceptance. The trick word is the simple four-letter word SELF.

Today it is easy for me to say that it was because of my precious Gramps born in 1875 that I can spend











Child developmental experts give us such handy terms such as infant, toddler, child, pre-adolescent, adolescent and adult that one can learn in a beginning child development book and terms commonly spoken in our American culture. However, there is also COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT that provides a very simple dissection during our journey of becoming an adult. There is the CONCRETE THINKING of childhood and the ABSTRACT THINKING of adulthood.

















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