My Beloved is ONE alone; Everywhere my eyes seem Him only. In search of love, I came to this world, but after seeing the world I wept, for I felt coldness on all sides, and I cried out in despair, "Must I too Become cold?". And with tears, tears, tears, I nurtured that plant with tenderness which I had almost lost within my heart. Putting reason in the churn of love, I churned and churned. Then I took the butter for myself.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Introduction - BRAIN STRAIN

I am writing in response to previous questions asked to me by my son and he is my target audience. I am sending copies to those on my email list and the choice to read what I write is theirs. This is but the first in what I intend to be a series of my writings to my son.

The BRAIN does not think in the English language
The Tower of Babel and Pyramids of Egypt

Introduction - BRAIN STRAIN

In 2000 I participated in a national clinical study focused upon the subject area of schizophrenia as a 'parent' in Denver. I spent 8 hours with a doctor that specialized in this disorder asking me what seemed to be a series of never ending questions. This 8 hour experience could find similarity to sitting in a witness seat in a courtroom and being asked very direct and pointed questions about people, places and situations of my life back in time to my own childhood (not just questions about my children). There was a half an hour for lunch break and two 15 minute breaks and this interview would be described by me as VERY formal in contrast to relaxed.

It was after I had been given the closing 'thank you' statements involving this 8 hours of questioning the voice of the doctor seemed to change into the voice of a non-professional and I was asked if I minded that he wanted to ask me some questions that were not part of the clinical project.

The doctor stated that he had a great deal of experience interacting with parents involved with schizophrenia and he wanted to know how I handled personal stress because whatever I had been doing was something that enabled me not to be 'totally stressed out' in contrast to other parents having only 1 child with such diagnosis in contrast to my own involvement with this disorder with my own children let alone an ex-husband, the father of my 4 children.

I recall back in 2000, first responding and chuckling that he should have been stressed out listening to me talk about myself for 8 hours! Today I could say that was one of the best therapeutically experiences of my life having someone spend that amount of time asking me very in depth questions about MYSELF and those people, places and experiences of my life.

I could not hand the doctor a key to why I was not a totally stressed out human in 2000 like some secret meditation I used, or something that doctor could learn involving stress reduction. I could only just tell him:

"A tree needs STRESS to grow, it is STRAIN that carries the potentiality of injuring and potentially killing a tree. My children have never caused me STRAIN".

The doctor told me that I should write a book to help other parents deal with STRESS. Since 2000 I have occasionally contemplated upon this interaction with that doctor and writing on the subject area of STRESS, and today I concluded he should have asked me to write a book about dealing with STRAIN.

Brain Strain - American culture

In the 1950's I learned to read in school using the STANDARDIZED reading books called the "Dick, Jane and Spot" series. Likewise, I learned my ABC's and numbers as were those other children around me. This is a simple example of BRAIN STRAIN inflicted upon small children. I would compare this to making children carry a bucket full of water up a hill each day. I find it no surprise that our school SYSTEM is failing at this time in history. The key term in this paragraph is STANDARDIZED. Education in our American culture is overseen by an INSTITUTION providing the experts, specialists, and authorities upon the word EDUCATION.

A child's brain has the ability to memorize just as they could be instructed to pick up buckets of water and carry them uphill every day. STRAIN is the term I would use for childhood mental activities overseen by experts, specialists and authorities within our American culture.

STRAIN carries the potentiality to inflict injury and there is little wonder there are herds of adults in our society passing through our culture's institutionalized educational system actually dying from what the medical profession simply terms with their handy-dandy label STRESS RELATED DISORDERS.





Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Tower of Babel ....

PROPERTY ownership ... teaching the British speaking Old English the rules of the EMPIRE after Normandy Conquest of c.1066 and those on the British Isles had to learn the non-Germanic language of their conquerors - a language finding a linguistic root system straight into the Roman Empire (Latin the spoken and written language of those in ancient Rome (Romantic languages such as French, Spanish were given the name Romantic not because of love rather because of Rome and finding a linguistic root system to ancient Latin) ... the building of empires .... EACH WORD IS A BRICK THAT CAN BE USED IN CONSTRUCTION - AND THERE WAS THE SO ANCIENT TEACHING OF THE TOWER OF BABEL. It was those that could read and write that held societal power in the West .... the written word is a human TOOL. Control the language and you control the people that speak that TONGUE - the MOUTH is the Mysterious Cave that mystics have addressed throughout time.

savior
c.1300, "one who delivers or rescues from peril," also a title of Jesus Christ, from O.Fr. sauveour, from L.L. salvatorem (nom. salvator) "a saver, preserver" (cf. Sp. salvador, It. salvatore), from salvatus, pp. of salvare "to save" (see save (v.)). In Christian sense, translation of Gk. soter "savior." Replaced O.E. hælend, lit. "healing," noun use of prp. of hælan (see heal).
anoint
c.1300 (implied in anointing), from O.Fr. enoint "smeared on," pp. of enoindre "smear on," from L. inunguere, from in- "on" + unguere "to smear" (see unguent). Originally in reference to grease or oil smeared on for medicinal purposes; its use in the Coverdale Bible in reference to Christ (cf. The Lord's Anointed, see chrism) has spiritualized the word.

unguent
"ointment," mid-15c., from L. unguentem "ointment," from stem of unguere "to anoint or smear with ointment," from PIE base *ongw- "to salve, anoint" (cf. Skt. anakti "anoints, smears," Armenian aucanem "I anoint," O.Pruss. anctan "butter," O.H.G. ancho, Ger. anke "butter," O.Ir. imb, Welsh ymenyn "butter").
messiah
c.1300, Messias, from L.L. Messias, from Gk. Messias, from Aramaic meshiha and Heb. mashiah "anointed" (of the Lord), from mashah "anoint." This is the word rendered in Septuagint as Gk. Khristos (see Christ). In O.T. prophetic writing, it was used of an expected deliverer of the Jewish nation. The modern English form represents an attempt to make the word look more Hebrew, and dates from the Geneva Bible (1560). Transferred sense of "an expected liberator or savior of a captive people" is attested from 1660s.

Christ
title given to Jesus of Nazareth, O.E. crist, from L. Christus, from Gk. khristos "the anointed" (translation of Heb. mashiah; see messiah), verbal adj. of khriein "to rub, anoint" (see chrism). The L. term drove out O.E. hæland "healer" as the preferred descriptive term for Jesus. A title, treated as a proper name in O.E., but not regularly capitalized until 17c. Pronunciation with long -i- is result of Irish missionary work in England, 7c.-8c. The ch- form, regular since c.1500, was rare before. Capitalization of the word begins 14c. but is not fixed until 17c.
heal
O.E. hælan "make whole, sound and well," from P.Gmc. *khailaz (cf. O.S. helian, O.N. heila, O.Fris. hela, Du. heelen, Ger. heilen), lit. "to make whole," which is also the source of O.E. hal (see health). Related: Healed; healing. Heal-all as a native word for "panacea" is attested from 1570s; applied to various plants since 1853.
domain
early 15c., in Scottish, from M.Fr. domaine "domain, estate," from O.Fr. demaine "lord's estate," from L. dominium "property, dominion," from dominus "lord, master, owner," from domus "house" (see domestic). Form influenced in O.Fr. by M.L. domanium "domain, estate." Internet domain name attested by 1985.
lord
M.E. laverd, loverd (13c.), from O.E. hlaford "master of a household, ruler, superior," also "God" (translating L. Dominus, though O.E. drihten was used more often), earlier hlafweard, lit. "one who guards the loaves," from hlaf "bread, loaf" + weard "keeper, guardian, ward." Cf. lady, and O.E. hlafæta "household servant," lit. "loaf-eater." Modern monosyllabic form emerged 14c. The verb meaning "to play the lord, domineer" is from late 14c.; to lord it is from 1570s. Interjection Lordy first attested 1853, Amer.Eng. Lord of the Flies translates Beelzebub (q.v.) and was name of 1954 book by William Golding.